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Insanity Doesn’t Have an Expiration Date

“At 29 years sober while on a business trip in NYC, I was staying at a hotel and I woke up one morning and the coffee maker in my hotel room was broken.  UGH!  I put on my clothes, go down to the front desk and ask, “Where’s the nearest Starbucks?”  The clerk says, “Ok, walk out the front door, turn left, walk down the sidewalk to the next corner, turn left, go two streets, turn right….” (blah, blah, blah – that’s what I heard). So instead of saying something snarky like, “Are you kidding me with this?” I said, “Thank you.”

I walked out the door and as I was walking, I noticed there is a Hampton Inn connected to the hotel I was staying in.  If you’ve ever stayed in a Hampton Inn, you know what they have in the lobby.  FREE COFFEE!  So, just like I was staying there, I walked in the front door, walked over to the coffee station, got me a to go cup, and walked out the door – JUST LIKE I WAS STAYING THERE.  So, at 29 years sober, my untreated alcoholism (in that moment) told me it was okay to basically STEAL a cup of coffee. Without going into all the gory details, my HP didn’t let that selfishness, self-centeredness, and dishonesty last long.

Because I do want to have the personality change sufficient to bring about recovery in my life, within 15 minutes I was standing in front of the hotel manager at that Hampton Inn making an amends (making it right – not saying I’m sorry), paying her for the coffee and doing the next right thing.  In that moment, one of my biggest teachable moments occurred… “Insanity Doesn’t Have and Expiration Date.”  2 days, 2 months, 2 years or 20 years…. if I am not hyper aware of my defects of character in the moment as they are happening (and connected to a God of my understanding), I stand the chance of my alcoholism becoming untreated once again.”

– Rick W., Grapevine, TX